I Hate People

I hate people. I’m not supposed to say that. I’m not living in the world of the ordinary and so I suppose I am supposed to love everyone… but for real, authentically; and that’s who I proclaim to be, I FUCKING hate people.

WHY:

People are selfish

People are inconsistent

People only show up for you when they can gain something from you

People are people

But as I reflect on this I realize that we create these relationships with people. We teach them how to treat us, we let them know what they can expect from us, we accept their bullshit and we keep going back for more. We are addicted to whatever good feelings they give us so no matter what they put us through we keep playing their game.

So what then? It is statistically improbable that you can live an amazing life all alone and never depend on another person for anything. Name one person whose life you admire. Now look up their support system. Not one of those people is able to live that life without a significant amount of encouragement and support. We as people need people to survive.

Ok so now what Adrien, You’re going back and forth you hate people but you need them. What are you even talking about?

I’m talking about loving people as they are and making the necessary changes you need to survive. You can love your mother and be free of whatever pisses you off about her. Tell her what that is and get over it. The same goes for your best friend. Your aunt. Your mailman. Whoever. Have a conversation where you let them know what the issue is. Let them know that you’re not blaming them, you’re just informing them of what doesn’t work for you. From there move on. Strengthen your relationship or if that relationship no longer serves you let it go. There’s nothing wrong with ending a friendship that is no longer working for any of the people involved. Hell, Beyonce just fired her whole damn management team.

Oh yeah, And this is my When I get rich “You wasn’t with me when I was shooting in the gym.” Post

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The Face You Make When You Say Something Crazy On The Internet

 

12 Commandments of Happy Adrien

Cleaning my office I found a list of commandments that I created for myself while reading  Gretchen Rubin’s The Happiness Project. I’m posting them here because I find a lot of inspiration from others and maybe you do too.

  1. Be Adrien
  2. Let it GO!
  3. Act they way you want to feel.
  4. Do it not.
  5. Be Polite. Be Fair.
  6. Enjoy the process.
  7. Spend Out
  8. Identify the problem.
  9. LIGHTEN UP.
  10. Do what needs to be done.
  11. No calculation.
  12. There is only one life. LIVE IT!!!

On Why I Am NOT Here For Arming College Students

I have said this before: I am a college student. I sit in classes with adult sized children who don’t want to fully participate in class until they realize that they are going to fail then get pissed with the professors for “failing them”. Who then try to manipulate those same professors into passing them because, you know, life is so hard for most college students.

I have witnessed deplorable amounts of entitlement portrayed in some very interesting ways including throwing things and refusing to leave classes “because the teacher is being unfair” to them, though they are the one’s who have exhibited some kind of behavior which warrants their removal from class.
I have close friends who are professors who have quite a few stories about how angry college students behave.
 
I have witnessed drunk, drugged, and angry students act out; in college classrooms.
 
In this country we don’t have a great history of young people bringing guns into school. Illegally or otherwise.
For Example:
  • Columbine was angry entitled children shooting up a school because they were pissed off.
  • In March 2015 Christopher Sean Marcer Hill shot and killed nine people; fellow students and a teacher at the college that he attended.
  • February 2008 Steven Kazmierczak killed 5 people at the college that he attended.
I could literally do this all day but I won’t, the information is out there and very easy to find. Google Shootings at schools in America and be extremely saddened by the amount of results you receive in 0.6 seconds.
 
Some people see these instances and say oh if the other people had guns they could have protected themselves, even though gun ownership data concludes that “Owning a gun has been linked to higher risks of homicide, suicide, and accidental death by gun.”
 
And that’s what we want in our schools? As a student and the parent of a student that is the furthest thing from what I want in our schools.

Dream Life

“Do you have a dream life?” I think we were watching TV or something and AB repeated the question by the character of whichever show we were watching, Probably Grey’s Anatomy. That seems like a Grey’s question, “Do you have a dream life?”

I gave her my canned response “I’m living my dream life.”

It wasn’t true. It isn’t true. If my dreams were a reality I would:

  • Be a working writer making at least what I make in corporate America.
  • Have enough Social Media Marketing clients to turn down business.
  • I’d have enough money in the bank to provide for three generations to be more than comfortable.
  • I’d have a real estate portfolio large enough to require a full time management company.
  • My last three books would have all been on the New York Times best selling list for over twelve months.
  • My family would still be happy, healthy, and loved.

I truly believe that if you want to manifest your dreams then you need to write them down. Are you living your dream life? If not what does it look like? Write it down.

Brilliance; One Authors Take on Using Differences to Fuel Wars.

One of my favorite things about reading is that authors have the ability to discuss world problems in a fictional way. If you’re a thinker and the author is a decent writer you begin to contemplate and compare real world events to the events of the book.

Marcus Sakey’s Brilliance pits Brilliants against Normals in a way that Gays vs Straights, Blacks vs Whites, or Christians vs Muslims happens everyday. It showcases examples of ways that governments capitalize on fear and people’s differences to create wars that benefit the governments. Mr. Sakey does a great job exhibiting in his writing how a few human lives are  sacrificed “for the greater good” in order to further  political plans.

As I read this book I kept thinking that  if more people could realize that these examples are happening everyday then we would stop allowing our countries to instill fear in us in order to further separate us and make it easier on them to satisfy their own crude agendas.17171909[2].jpg

This book is the epitome of “fiction is the truth in the lie” and I liked it so much that I just purchased book two.

Aside from the political undertone which was handled brilliantly, Brilliance is written really well, action packed, and exciting to read. I gave it four stars.

Life- 300 Word Story

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Life

Life. This isn’t supposed to be her life. Her youngest is thirteen. She was almost done.

Life; Now is driving children from place to place. Is school, basketball practice, doctor’s appointments in the middle of the day. Is rushing home for foster care visits.

Life is trading in her silver Audi; the one she got for twenty-five years of marriage; for a shiny black Lincoln Navigator to tote grandchildren, grandnieces, and grandnephews in.

Audi’s don’t fit two car seats, two booster seats, and two more seats where her daughter and grandson will argue over who has shotgun. Audi’s don’t fit her life; don’t fit her “I was almost done with this damn fight for shotgun.” Don’t fit her quick reminders spoken more to herself “But I love my grandkids.”

“Life, these kids don’t think about anyone’s lives but their own.” She might say if you catch her at the right moment. If you can catch her in between all of the newfound duties that seem to have taken over her life.

She is almost done with some of the duties. The grandkids will convert from fosters to adoptees. This will lead to less regulation, less appointments, and more time for her to enjoy her new life.

If you can catch up with her she will probably be wearing athletic gear; black tights, black top, bright shoes. They’re slimming. They’re fun. “If I’m dressed for working out I can sneak a work out in. I need to lose some weight to save my life. These kids got my blood pressure high 150/105.”

Not her grandkids, grandniece, or nephew. The ones who lost them to the system; her son-3, her husband’s niece -2. The one’s whose irresponsibility changed, for better or worse, her life.

You Don’t Hate Social Media, You’re Just Doing It Wrong. Ten Ways To Do It Right.

Not a day goes by where I’m not privy to hearing someone spew their hatred for Social Media. Most times I just ignore it because depending on why a person is using  Social Media their hatred of it might not matter. If you are a brand or a business and you need to utilize it hating it is a serious problem. Below I’ve compiled a list of the most frequently heard complaints and how to address them.

1.”I just don’t get it there are so many people talking about things that I don’t care about. It’s so negative. I’m tired of seeing people’s pictures of their children.”

Regardless to why you have social media sites you don’t have to have a constant stream of everyone that your friends with in your stream. (At least on Facebook)You wouldn’t let your annoying cousin just come into your home anytime they felt like it; why would you allow them onto your FB feed so frequently?

The next time your cousin Jim posts a video of kids fighting, Click the little tab on the his post that looks like an inverted triangle. A box will open with different options: Hide Post, Unfollow, Report, Save, More. You want to unfollow that person. You will still be friends and when you want to catch up with that person you simply type their name into the search box, go over to their page, and catch up with what they’ve been doing. Easy Peasy.

For Twitter you will need an app that hides certain people from your timeline.

2. “I hate commenting because I’ll get a notification every time someone comments.”

If you’re getting emails of these notifications go to your Facebook setting and turn those off. Whenever you comment on someone’s status click the little inverted triangle at the top right corner of the post, scroll down and click turn off notifications for this post. (Be careful to click the right option; you don’t want to unfriend your Aunt Pat.)

3. “I don’t have any friends or followers.”

Follow people that you find interesting and be interactive. Share interesting things. Most people will follow you back. Don’t be afraid to ask people to follow you back.

4. “No one likes my statuses or shares my posts.”

Be yourself and share tidbits of who you are. Don’t constantly share things like BUY MY BOOK or PURCHASE MY PRODUCT. People want to have a relationship with you so focus on building relationships. Share interesting things about you and your industry.

5. “The sites are like a vacuum and take up way too much of my time.”

Again you wouldn’t go hang out in the park or community center all day. Treat these sites as if they are physical spaces, because technically they are. Pick a time when you’re going to log on, share, and be interactive and stick to it.

6. “I don’t have enough content to share to build a good base.”

The internet is a vast dumping ground for content. Most of it can be shared very easily as long as you give credit where credit is due.

7. “I don’t get twitter. I don’t want to create a twitter account. Do I need one?”

You need to be wherever your people are. Twitter is as important as Facebook for some industries and Twitter doesn’t suppress your posts like Facebook does. It does take some time and energy to build a following base but to whom much is given, much is expected. Schedule some time to get interactive and to build on there and get to building. Also Hootsuite can be your best friend. (Though you should not solely depend on Hootsuite to build your entire fan/followerbase.)

8.”The people who I really want to see my posts don’t see them.”

That’s what the tag is for. I don’t tag all of my friends in everything but if I’m sharing something that I think they’d like or I want them to see it then I tag them in it. That way I can guarantee that they see it.

9.”Seriously I really don’t have the time. I need a Social Media Manager but I can’t afford it.”

Most companies (including mine) offer smaller packages for those on stringent budgets. Just be aware that smaller packages usually equal less interaction on the SMM’s part and will require work on your part. Also look around you, do you have access to interns or little cousins who are good at social media? Utilize them. They won’t get the same results as a professional but you’d be surprised at how well they’ll do. Kitchen Table used a teenage intern over the summer and she was AMAZING.

10. “I don’t feel connected to people. ”

Anything that has the word social in it is about connecting but if it’s face to face contact you crave then initiate it. Facebook isn’t keeping your friends away from you. More than likely their lives are, which is why so many people love social media. It’s a way to connect when you don’t have time for face to face. Use your social media sites to initiate contact. The next time Judy posts a picture of her new haircut say  “Oh I love what you did with your hair. I can’t wait to see it in person. Let’s do lunch Friday.”  If your friends can’t or won’t hang out with you in person after you tell them then the problem isn’t social media…

Social Media is not going away. In today’s market place some companies won’t even talk to you unless you have an active thriving social media presence. Being active and creating a presence is a lot easier than people make it out to be. Make it work for you not the other way around.

If you don’t need it for your business or to build your brand then delete it. But even people who write blog posts about hating Social Media have share tabs linked to their social media sites so who are they kidding?

To The People Who Came For Sandra Bullock In Regards to Her Fear For Her Son: No.

When you write a whole blog post to a white mother of a black child and try to minimize her fear for her child because she’s white you’re starting to hop over the fence into the territory of those you so desperately proclaim to be better than.

Sandra Bullock has every right to fear for her child as much as any black mother does. As much as any mother does. That’s what mothers do best, Fear. For which they then try to protect.

In fact isn’t it fair to say that the two fears aren’t really comparable? Her fear is not the same as ours, it’s a different type of fear because she only knows what the media says. What she’s seen in movies, watched on TV, heard on the radio. All of which serve as strong forces of silencing the voices of black people and their plight. So she can’t possibly know what all she has to fear. Or at least that’s the assumption that I make when I try to put myself in her shoes.

You seek to minimize the importance of her fear by saying oh she wasn’t raised with this fear, hasn’t watched this trauma and abuse first hand in her community, to her brothers, cousins, uncles, etc. As if that doesn’t add a different element that is in fact still; Fear.

Do you ever stop to think what it must be like to know that the world is setup against your child yet have no experience in it? No preparation?

Do we (this collective voice of people sitting behind screens spewing out 650 words anytime anyone else has something to say) not have any empathy?

Some of these posts only serve as more fodder to further skew the focus.

Aren’t we yelling and screaming saying that Black Lives Matter, in hopes that other people will understand that they do? Isn’t this child black?

253611FF00000578-0-image-a-61_1422710821731Does the fact that his mother is white cover him in the blood of White Jesus so that now he does not need to be covered in the blood of hashtags?

Roxane Gay says in Bad Feminist “We need to stop playing Privilege or Oppression Olympics because we’ll never get anywhere until we find more effective ways of talking through our difference. We should be able to say, “This is my truth,” and have the truth stand without a hundred voices clamoring, shouting, giving the impression that multiple truths cannot co-exist.”

Today I urge you to think before you fix your pen to say that someone can’t express their fear because their fear doesn’t look like yours.

Taking Flight

It’s 8:09am and my flight just boarded to my first official writers conference.

 The fact that it’s LGBTQ centered makes me think of intersections, a topic I’ve been pondering quite a lot lately. I am so many things that intersect at  so many intersections.

I bumped into Sheree at the airport. She has been dragging me along for the last couple of years, urging me to write, urging me to publish, urging me to realize that there is power in words, that my words have power. 

She helped me to understand that this writer’s life is not easy and that if I wanted it I would have to actually do the work. 

So I’ve been doing the work. Unlocking myself. Gaining a sense of self confidence that is required to embark upon this journey. And I’m on it. 

 So it’s 8:14am and I’m sitting on this plane feeling like my life, my #writerslife is finally taking flight.